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Missing a Safety Net: De-nial Not Just a River Anymore

Myself getting prepared for a long day of testing at Mass General Hospital with my mom who is my safety net waiting in the car

My Safety Net

My safety net was what my whole life manageable.  My life was pretty much one big medical issue. Luckily I had two parents and two brothers to support me.  My safety net was made up of two people, my mom, and my dad. 

They didn’t always make the best decisions for me, in fact, sometimes their decisions messed things up for me really badly, but they loved me 100% unconditionally and always tried their hardest to make the best decisions for me.

It all started when I was eight and began dealing with muscle fatigue, then when I was ten I first got diagnosed with gastroparesis (a paralyzed stomach) and had to have emergency surgery to have 2.5 inches of dead bowel removed and then had to have an NJ tube placed.   

My NJ Tube

An NJ tube is a tube that goes in through your nose … Find Out What Happens Next

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The Problems With an Incurable Disease

The psych crisis center that my mom took me to when I was having problems with my PTSD

Looking like a five- or six-year-old when you’re twelve causes big problems in middle school. When you add to that the fact that the most popular girl in class, Natasha, got a hold of classified information that you spent a week and a half on a children’s psychiatric unit in fifth grade, that’s raising the problem level even higher. If you started sixth grade with a tube coming out of your nose to feed you because there’s something wrong with your stomach, that right there is strike three. It’s game over if you know all the answers to the teacher’s questions and usurp Natasha’s position as the “smartest kid in class.”

The year before, I finished sixth grade early because the teasing and bullying got too brutal for me. I was way ahead academically (despite a developmental delay in other areas) and could have easily skipped a grade or two … Find Out What Happens Next

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